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I’m not gonna be happy about my wedding day.

I can already feel it. I feel too shitty about myself, I won’t be happy. I’ll just find something to hate about myself. I’m looking more forward to the honeymoon cus at least then I know I won’t have to pretend.

This really sucks.

To be perfectly honest, looking past all the little details that go in to pulling off a wedding, all I want to be is happy that day. With the day, with the people I’m with, with myself. And I think that’s what I’m terrified of failing on the most. What if I’m not happy after all my efforts.